Makes me want to cry.
I have never been so frustrated with a project in my life.
I would rather redo mushroom mapper all over again than do this project.
Every time I start I feel like I've already failed.
The first project I wanted to do was too risky, so I changed it and then I found that again that project was too complicated (Spend 5 minutes with Adobe Fireworks and tell me how you feel), and now I'm stuck doing something that I am less passionate about than I was at the start of this project. When I first heard about this project I was excited, enthusiastic even. Now I feel like blah. Blah is such a funny word, it describes the amount of work that I have actually been able to accomplish less a design plan on this project.
I figured turning to IRC for suggestions on what tactics are used in the hosting industry to scam people was a good idea, the community was actually very helpful But once again, I risk repercussions and steeping on some powerful toes if I carry through with this.
I would like to think that this is one of those projects that I can just half ass but its not my style.
When it comes to something in my domain, the digital domain that is I feel like I have to put in 110% effort.
I have come to realize that I no longer know what I'm doing anymore in this class. I have never felt so stressed, rewarded and frustrated from a single class in my life. I used to work in an apple orchard, and the boss there used to get mad and throw things. Once while I was working making donuts he got some bad news and walked into my area, picked the tray up where the donuts were being laid after they fried and threw it across the room. He then looked at me and said "If you can make it here you can make it anywhere". That's how I feel about this class. I'm pushed to the point of breaking, just like I was at that job. I still don't even have 60% of my project done, and I still feel very confused, if anything at this school has made me really sit down and think about how my life and how things are going its this project...